I've had alot of time to think about this forum lately since I've been working so much on other projects and have nothing better to think about (pretty sad I know).

I've realized that I don't really fit in anymore. I'm a little too nieve in thinking everybody comes on here with good intentions and not causing trouble. My flaw in life is that I always try to play the nice guy and assume everybody is good before they prove otherwise. Ever since I made an *** of myself arguing with Stan, I thought about what it is that makes me argue with people.

The fact is I take things too personal and we all know that. I don't think I'm cut out to be an Admin or a Mod because of this. I have to apologize to Stan because I was wrong with the ignorant things I said (let's not go back there).

I thought to myself, why do little things bug me so much? Well, it's just who I am, because I try very hard to NOT take things personal, especially on here, and after not even realizing a simple thing like the renaming of ImportKiller was a joke, it made me wake up and realize ya know what? Stan was right, this isn't real, and it's not like being face to face with someone.

Anyway, I just wanted to say I apologize to Stan/Muddy and Mike both for blowing things out of proportion in those certain times I did. I realize that my personality and all of yours really don't blend well, because you guys can spot a troublemaker or moron a mile away, and I can't because I'm still, as hard as I ahve tried in my life not to be, "too nice" as they say. Patrick has kinda made me wake up and realize that I don't seem to see it when it happens with a few posts I've questioned.

This being said, over a month ago I asked Patrick to De-Mod and De-Admin me. It hasn't happened yet. If you guys honestly think I should stay with these titles, that's fine. If not, tell me. I don't know what I was smoking or doing at the time, but Muddy is right. If I don't have the time or ambition to be here more then I should (which I haven't lately) then I shouldn't be doing it. I kinda "get it" now if that's what you want to say.

Anyway, either way, just understand I'm not the same kind of person as you all are, and I am nieve, which I doubt will ever change since I'm already 32.

The fact is I told Patrick many times I think Mike should be an Admin here. I don't regret ever pushing him for that to happen. I'm glad I did, because if I didn't, this place would have gone down the tubes with just me being here. He does a great job, and I just don't have the time in my life to do it efficiently.

It's up to you guys. I won't take it personal. If there's one thing I've learned from Mike and Stan, is that you can't take an online forum personal. It may be different once you meet people in person, but that should stay separate from this. I obviously have a hard time doing that, so I think it's best if I just become a normal user again. Do I want that? No. I think that's how it should be though.

 

I accept your apology.... and I would like to apologize for not making myself more clear.... My comments were not directed at you personally... my comments were directed at your situation. I don't have anything against you as a person....

My thoughts and opinions didn't change after our spat... I still have nothing against you as a person... My concern first and foremost is the greater good of the forum... That hasn't changed... If this was a radioshow fan messageboard then I would say WGAF.... but it isn't.... it is a board with sponsors/vendors that deserve it to be the best it can be... they deserve 100% effort on all of our parts....

and I will leave it at that... to me it doesn't matter if you are stripped or if you keep it... if you are only here 5 days a month then what is the difference... it doesn't change your participation level at all...

Again... this was never personal...

 

I agree and I understand. Somebody said something to me a couple of weeks ago that stuck. They told me "People can only make opinions about you by how they percieve you to be by the actions you take and words you speak, which may not be who you really are."

Since then, I've been thinking I do make it seem like I'm just some goofy person on here but I'm not and don't want to be since I'm not like that in person, although I do know how to have a good time, I'm not a moron. I sure seem like it here sometimes though. I can't deny that I give that impression off. I know I do. If I looked at myself from somebody else's perspective, I would think that.

I know it wasn't personal, but I took it that way as I do alot of things I shouldn't. I'm working on that. It's just the way I was raised I suppose. Who knows. Ultimately it is my responsibility to be myself and not come here just to have fun or joke around with people. It's all fine to do so, but I come here more for the trucks and the knowledge then I do for a good time. That's what I have Impy's wife for

Anyway, I can see you are a good guy and feel like an idiot for ever saying anything negative about you. I was being a hypocrite and know what I've said in the past will not just go away. My version of someone having an ego is more me not being able to understand the humor and comments and that's going to stop. Hopefully I can stop being like this and use these things as one of those life lessons that you learn the hard way getting older. I've been burned alot in the past lending a hand to people who didn't deserve it, and I learned the hard way from that as well. I need to learn what is personal and what isn't. It's hard to do when you are surrounded by people all day that think they are a better person then you because they have money, ie: many of the attorneys at my firm. I think that has something to do with it. Regardless, I can't take back the way I've acted in the past, but I can make sure I change my ways for the future.

As far as being an admin/mod, I do choose not to be here much as well as not choosing. I just get burned out with things and tend to need a break. As an Admin, that's not really an option to come and go as you please. We'll see what happens. I just think it's best to have a backup.

That being said, I can't ban this "offroadrowdy" or whoever he is because I forgot the admin password. As soon as Patrick is around, and if I'm around, I'll get rid of his ***. No more Mr. Nice Guy.

 

he's been banned already...and MIke...your a strange bird[8D]

 

you're

 

I know [&o]

 

 

Mike, you need to calm down. You are over analyzing things I think. You have been in "the group" as long as I have been a member on here. I never thought any of the stuff that you have said about yourself. You are a little "goofy" sometimes, but I always took that as good humor. You know, it takes all kinds of different personalities to effectively run a board, forum, company, whatever. You have the hard asses and you need the good hearted funny people to counteract that also. Don't sell yourself short. Whether you are contributing as far as "what gear ratio should I be running?" or if you are having a good time and keeping people "grounded" it's all good. You help make a good balance. If you have personal reasons in your life not to be here, then so be it. But if it is simply because you "think you are too nice" that's a crock IMO. You are a good guy, hang out, relax. It's all good!

 

Well, I caused a bit of trouble before. That's why I'm saying what I say. You guys didn't see it because we choose to get rid of those posts But you are right. It's all good.

 

im pretty sure that you never caused trouble...being a part of trouble and causing it are two very different things, so long as we are talking about the same situation.